The life here is not easy , at least not at the start. I am not finding my self at home. It feels as if you are stuck somewhere and just cant get out. The silence around is deafening and plus you are left with nothing to do. I have a home to setup , but somehow I cant even call this place home. Home is where he heart is and my heart is back there in India, I have cried my eyes out and gone back to the silent person I just don’t want to be. It would be hard , I knew it but at least I was sure then that I would be able to manage this big change. But I am not able to do it , and I find myself helpless. This is depressing , and I need to get out of it as soon as possible.